EPILOGUE

The great French mathematician and philosopher Blaise Pascal had a mystical experience, a kind of private revelation, that changed his life. He wrote down a description in French and Latin and wore a copy next to his heart for the rest of his life. It is known as Pascal’s memorial.^{1}

                Fire.
God of Abraham, God of Isaac, God of Jacob,
not of the philosophers and the learned.
Certainty, certainty, feeling, joy, peace.
God of Jesus Christ,
My God and your God.
Your God will be my God.
The world and everything but God forgotten.
He can be found only by the paths taught in the Gospel.
The grandeur of the human soul.
The just Father whom the world has not known, but I have known Him.
Joy, joy, joy, tears of joy.
I have separated myself from him:
They have forsaken me, the fount of living water.
My God do not abandon me.
Lest I be eternally separated from you.

This is eternal life, that they should know the one true God
and the one whom He has sent, Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ.
I have abandoned him, fled him, renounced and crucified him.
May I never be separated from him.
He can be had only by the paths taught in the Gospel.
Total and sweet renunciation. Etc.
Total submission to Jesus Christ and to my director.
Eternally in joy for a day of testing on earth.
May I not forget your words. Amen.